Nostalgia;

"Throwback Thursday" always makes me extremely nostalgic, and because of this I started to try to figure out what exactly makes me nostalgic about the past. You can't really be nostalgic when you have future things to look forward to. I'm no longer nostalgic for my horses, or ponies, past, because I have three horses with fantastic futures to look forward to. I'm more excited for Dodger, Remi, and HR than I ever was for Splash or Cisco, Pony Finals included.

What's the absolute worst thing about nostalgia is that we're most often nostalgic for feelings.

What's the worst thing about my nostalgia is that I'm nostalgic for pain. I miss emotional pain so badly that I would go back to a time where I had it. I've become so numb to the idea of caring about someone that every boy in my life is so irrelevant and I'm beyond detached. I miss feeling something. I more than anything miss feeling something for the person that's single-handedly cause me the most emotional pain I've ever felt in my entire life.... excuse me while I call my own self stupid. 

This picture brings back so many memories it's ridiculous... and it was taken out of spite. 

That's nostalgia, my friends. Everyone speaks of this "nostalgia" with somewhat high regards... but it's shitty. It's miss the things you can't go back to. It's the things you lost. 

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