Nostalgia;

"Throwback Thursday" always makes me extremely nostalgic, and because of this I started to try to figure out what exactly makes me nostalgic about the past. You can't really be nostalgic when you have future things to look forward to. I'm no longer nostalgic for my horses, or ponies, past, because I have three horses with fantastic futures to look forward to. I'm more excited for Dodger, Remi, and HR than I ever was for Splash or Cisco, Pony Finals included.

What's the absolute worst thing about nostalgia is that we're most often nostalgic for feelings.

What's the worst thing about my nostalgia is that I'm nostalgic for pain. I miss emotional pain so badly that I would go back to a time where I had it. I've become so numb to the idea of caring about someone that every boy in my life is so irrelevant and I'm beyond detached. I miss feeling something. I more than anything miss feeling something for the person that's single-handedly cause me the most emotional pain I've ever felt in my entire life.... excuse me while I call my own self stupid. 

This picture brings back so many memories it's ridiculous... and it was taken out of spite. 

That's nostalgia, my friends. Everyone speaks of this "nostalgia" with somewhat high regards... but it's shitty. It's miss the things you can't go back to. It's the things you lost. 

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My Home Run

Sorry for my absence, but my composition class I'm taking this semester has re-inspired me to write on a daily basis.... and what better way to force myself to sit down and write than by writing about my horses on a daily basis.

So expect to hear more from me and my daily (or semi-daily) struggles.

With that being said.... I'd like to introduce my newest struggle:

So it's not the most flattering picture of either of us, but it shows how to-die-for in love I am with him and I think he's an excellent addition to my pack of equines. 

However, he's definitely a challenge. I have a new job (I'll explain in future posts) that is basically how I stumbled across this guy and how it worked out well enough that I'm blessed and fortunate enough to take on a third horse in full training (dear God).... cue struggle #1, college senior with three horses (spread across two different barns) and a full time schedule. 

Struggle #2 is that he's completely different than any horse I've ever worked with. He's an Off-Track Thoroughbred... which sure yeah he's green but he's a drastically DIFFERENT kind of green. Where most of the horses I've trained have been uninfluenced by any training, I have the task of re-training him from track horse to hunter/jumper. WOO.

Sarcasm aside, I'm extremely excited about him and what his future holds regardless of which ring he ends up in.... and also eternally grateful for my patient mother who follows me into the depths of my horse ventures!

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Horse Show Prep;

So today I'm prepping to leave for a show with Remi AND Dodger! So excited to have him back in the ring this weekend, even though the forecast is calling for rain :[ And since I'm showing them in the same division, my sister gets to hack Remi which she's about to die over haha

And some of you are aware of my extreme OCD organization issues and so at age 21 I still make lists for every horse show; but on the plus side I rarely ever forget anything!

Dodger:

• Bridle
• Saddle
• Martingale
• Girth
• Show halter
• Show Pad
• 2 Baby pads
• Neck stretcher
• Equifit Open-Fronts
• Ankle Boots
• Black Polos
• Pillow Wraps
• No bows
• Standing Wraps
• Stable sheet
• Poultice
• Poultice Paper
• Liniment

Remi:

• Show Bridle
• Figure-8 Bridle with Elevator
• Segunda D-Ring
• Martingale
• Girth
• Show Pad
• 2 Baby Pads
• Pillow Wraps
• Standing Wraps
• Stable Sheet
• Show halter

General:

• 4 water buckets
• 4 bucket straps
• Dodger's feed bucket
• Remi's feeder + attachment straps
• Bucket Covers
• 1 bale Coastal Hay
• Remi's Feed
• Dodger's Feed
• UlcerGuard
• Lunge Line
• Lunge Whip
• Fly Spray
• Tail Detangler
• Tack Trunk
• Halter Hooks

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so update:
my boyfriend and I broke up...
that's all I have to say right now.


and exams this week. fantastic.
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exposur3;

So almost a week late and I'm finally getting picture up from the Aiken Spring Classic Finale. I've finally picked a favorite:

I just like the lighting. It was after the show was over on Thursday and my friend was hacking and everything was so quiet. I feel like the photo is quiet. Like there's nothing interfering with the horse and rider. 

That is until the water truck came and sprayed me while I was sitting on the fence... photographer problems.

Just to compare the last photo to something, this would be the chaos of the show bustle that the first picture lacks. A intimate moment is rare at a horse show and I just like the picture.

Lame explanation I know.

If you'd like to see some more of my photography you can visit my photography blog here: 

http://equinefocus.tumblr.com/

and also on facebook:

https://www.facebook.com/pages/Equine-Focus/561314737242764?ref=hl

That's all I have for now. I have some more personal horse updates but I'll handle those over the weekend.

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WTR

As my semester classes came to a close, i switched from one grind to the next.
Instead of homework, it's not desk work (mixed in with some last minute exam studying before my two finals).
So for the summer, aside from beaching it up every possible chance I have (which is not much) my schedule will be consumed with WTR'ing. Work. Tan. Ride.
Aka nothing will be very interesting. I realize I've been MIA here, and actually someone brought it to my attention, but all of my social networks have suffered neglect over the last month of college work hell. I'm back though!
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mini rant/

it bothers me so badly when people on YouTube eventually get thousands of subscribers and then they turn into diva trolls.

I talk to basically anyone and appreciate everyone that has the desire to follow me. Every single person counts.

People that bash how other people edit are scum.

Sorry I haven't been on in awhile.... it's the end of the Semester and I'm dying a slow, painful death.

PEACE.
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